Ok ... I must apologize for not writing here as much as I used to .... I've just been busy with things ... and by the time I have a chance to sit down I'm too tired to do anything .... blah ... and now that I have a moment I have to go bc I have class ... grrr ... stupid boring computer lecture that tells me nothing ..... I think I should just take a tour of the Mackenzie printing press .... BLARG!!!!!!!! .... I'm so stressed out at the moment and I want to bitch but nobody will listen to me .... I feel like a fraud .... I put on this fucking happy goofy ass appearance when deep down inside I'm not totally like that ..... grrrrr .... Well I am like that .... but not all the time .... I wanna be serious .... read newspapers and drink my stupid tazo chai tea lattes ...... I want to go to museums and art galleries .... music concerts and ..... I just want to learn .... I want to be an intellect .... I feel like such a dumbass some days and that bugs me ..... blah ... these incomplete thoughts just keep pouring out of my head into my fingers .... I keep pounding the keys harder and harder ... as more and more thoughts keep coming .... and I run out of time ... I wanna sit .... i dont wanna go to class ... Im in a crappy mood