I had just written a big long thing, only to have it erased ... as if I wasn't feeling like shit as it is
My mom has told me I need to focus on my school instead of hanging out with my friends so much. I understand where she is coming from, but she doesnt realize, my only time out is when I'm with friends, I can't just get in the car and drive. Secondly, I do focus on school, more than ever before. I've passed up many things to do school work .... I feel like I can never make them (my family proud) ... they just keep finding faults ... Anyways, I can't have friends over for awhile nor can I go out ... atleast that's what I say ... mom is just worried
Also I've been really upset bc mom keeps talking about money ... we have none ... infact we are in debt and hardly have money for me to get to school .... nevermind that ... but Christmas is coming and I can't get anyone anything .... unlike usual ... it's scary .... I mean ppl are telling me what they are getting me .... and I cant get them squat ... I just wanna say ... dont bother .... I cant do anything for you in return .... BAH!!!!!! .... I feel like a charity case ... my friend even had to buy me lunch and pay for my skating pass ... like seriously ... I feel like shit ... I went from having so much ... to this .... BLARG .... I wanna cry