I'm running on about 2hrs of sleep right now because we decided to sleep over at Diana's ... and of course that meant talking all night. I also had my pills doubled so I'm just getting used to it ... can we say hyperactive? ... I really hope I get to see Michele or Joanne today. It's sad to think that they are both what keeps me going on days like today. I'm feeling rather strange right now because .... I don't know where I stand with my college friends. I mean I dont seem to fit in sometimes and that bugs me. I feel even worse though bc they seem to think I break everything, I'm very self concious so at times it does hurt ( I broke a couch, toilet, backpack and probably something else). It's not that though .... I sometimes just don't feel like I am like them ... I bond with each of them on a level .... but not like my highschool friends