I'm such a loser ... all day today I couldn't stop thinking about Rachel. I want to see her so badly .... I wore the ring that she bought me all day today and kept playing with it like I used to when we went out. I decided I'd see if she was busy on New Years ... I'm guessing she is .... but I can't help but hope that she'll come out with me .... I just want to spend a night with her .... catch up on everything .... I'm such a loser ...