Well yesterday had to be one of the crappiest days in a long time.
First we picked up Diana and then picked up Emme, Diana suggested to go to the Pen and even though I really didn't want to ... we did. But before we went there we stopped at Emmes old school then walked over. By the time I got to the mall I had the worst cramp/pain I've had in a long time and was worried it was the pain I get b4 I have to get taken to the Emergency ....... Anyways I told my friends to walk through the mall and come back to get me ... when they came back I was feeling a bit better especially bc Diana got me a pretzel (She's such a sweetie) ... Suddenly IU saw Joanne walk by ... my throat tightened up and I couldn't spit anything out ... So we jumped up and followed her, she went to her car though ... I quickly realized the pain was back and worse ... So I started flipping out ... I was bitching at my friends to get to the bus stop as quick as we could ... and as soon as one was there (for downtown) we jumped on it .... we left Emme there and I felt really bad ... especially since I was just acting like mega bitch .... anyways ... the bus ride was horrid ... I've never hit so many bumps ...... and I wanted to tear out my innerds ...
Well I got home ... and took some meds .... laid down and soon felt better ...
There was a bunch of other stuff that happened ... but I just wanted to say this because I feel horrid about the way I treated my friends
I don't think they understand how much they mean to me ... I mean I never really let them know ... I just kinda hope they can guess ..... but they do ... I value their friendship
So yea ... I can be a real bitch .... and I know it .... and I have trouble trying to help it ... but I'm not always like that .... it actually only really started this year .... just ask my high school friends