Well ... I went to Kelly's today and was very quiet the entire time, but atleast I was happy ... Then I called mom to pick me up and then Erin to say we'd come and get her for the movie. Erin said that she was just going to stay home .... but then quickly said she'd go with me (we said we'd go tonight yesterday) ... I when I got to grams I said I might aswell call her and tell her not to worry ... she didn't sound like she wanted to ...
Then I thought, I guess I could go out with Joey, Diana and Emme (Emme's friends too) .... but then I decided I dont think I will bc as it is I feel like a third wheel with Joey and Diana .... nevermind how I would feel with Emme's friends around ....
Finally I ran upstairs in hopes that Naomi told Rach I wanted to talk to her and she ran to the phone to call me ..... but no .... that didn't happen
So now I am sitting here depressed out of my mine .... for reasons that I brought on .... gott love the way things work with me .... I choose sadness over happiness
Wow ... I'm so pathetic ... I just answered a phone that wasn't ringing
I can't wait till New Years ... NOT ...