I can officially say that I feel like crap ... I got fed up in the photography lab and just gave up on everything. I said I would come in on the weekend but I'm guessing that I will chicken out .... *shrugs* ... Next I made a total ass out of myself today ... I got all tongue twisted around the 2 people I like .... I mean ... GEEZ ... listen to me ... I'm such a loser ... all i do is complain ... *shakes head* ... maybe somebody should just lock me in a white room .... OH another thing to complain about .... after working in the dark room for awhile .... the inside of my nose turned black .... and I know it is from the lab because it happened to my friend Laura aswell ....
I wish I could be happy ... I think I make myself miserable bc some part of me either likes being unhappy or is afraid to be happy .... blah blah blah blah ...