I don't even know where to begin right now. As we all know I have been feeling really shitty the past few days and hate it. I hate constantly feeling like it is the end of my world ... like I am nothing ... or even that there is no point to me being here ... I've put my meds beside my computer so I remember to take them, I felt a spell coming on the other day and it scared me ... being trapped inside of my body feeling like I have no control ... Even no I have no control ... My moods swing so much ... One of my friends just got really upset with me and has left the room, I really don't think it was my fault. I'm not the one causing stress in her life, so it isn't fair to freak on me. Oh well ... BLAH ... I'm so fed up ... I hate being depressed ... but I guess I should be used to it by now ...
Well ... I feel like crying ... but I'm in the middle of the open access lab ... and yea ... that wouldn't be the greatest ... infact I would probably feel worse ... BLAH ... Why couldnt my mother just pick me up right now ... blah blah blah ...
*shrugs* ... I have a feeling if I went home the girl would become even more mad at me ... i dont know what to do ...