I feel like shit .... and you know what ... I can't even post why ...... I have so much going on in my head ... I mean I've had a lot of time to just sit and think ... I actually haven't done anything since Friday night, well I went to the mall and ate with Joey on Monday .... but other than that I haven't done anything .... just sit .... and think .... while I do mindless activities ..... ARGH ... I just want to scream and cry ... but there are people around ... I hate not being able to release ... i always have .... usually I just put on my music ... but bc of the good quality of my speakers my mom yells .... and I hate the feeling of headphones ... so I'd rather not use my mp3 player ....
I think I might just go lay out in the snow .... like when I was little and would fall asleep in it .... but alas ... the air is too cold ..... you know what ... since I cant post whats going on in my life and inside of me ... Im just going to end it ... I'll write in my paper journal