Well ... I can't stop crying ... but hey ... I'm used to it ... there probably is a rational explanation for why I can't get ahold of Rach to have a decent conversation ... She told me to call at 9:30 but apparently it sounds like she is going out or something ... ummm ... yea ... I'm just a lil down ... I'll be fine ... *bawls* ... mom says my music is thumping and she's going to bed ... so I've lost the last thing keeping me sane at his moment ... umm ... yea ... I think I'm going to paint