WHOA ... a girl from my class just totally guessed that I would interview Michele and said that she knew I liked her (i dont think she knows how much) ...
I feel horrible that I don't know many people in my program ... especially with paper production coming up ... "hey ... you ... do you know how this works?" .... I'm sure that'll sound great ... I really only know Theresa, Mel and Ang ... I talk to Ashley online every so often ... but we arent close by any means .... she seems like a really nice person ..
I think the reason I haven't become friends with all of them ... is this preconception that they are like the ppl from elementary and high school .... the ones that used to constantly pick on me .... talk behind my back ... and all of that kind of shit ...
I feel bad ... I mean ... I'm being so judgemental ... but I cant help it ... Not after the ... torture that I went through when I was younger ... i cant set myself up ... to become friends with these ppl ... and then .... have them hurt me ... BLAH ... me and my fears ... fears that consume me ....
I think my goal for this semester, along with getting good grades, will be to become friends with everyone .... Caitlin seems to be a nice person ... so maybe that's where I should start ... I mean ... Im not as afraid of her as some other people ...


lmao ... a friend just came in the lab and sat a few seats away from me on the other side of the row I am at ... lmao ... I wonder if she'll notice ... Im guessing not ... BAH ... where the hell is everyone ... im bored outta my mind ... I mean look at how much i posted ... that is definately not normal