My head is about to explode bc I have so much stuff crammed into it ....

I feel like I am slowly losing myself in a way ... Like I am becoming something I hate and I really have to get back to where I was .... I seem to be more offensive ... I'm not the gentle giant anymore ... people see me as a jekyl and hyde personality ... one moment I'm a timid little mouse and the next moment I'm some big bully, waiting for you to screw up just to laugh ... I wish people wouldn't think that of me ... I try to be sarcastic and stuff but people don't get my humor ... and when I try to speak ... I don't seem to be able to grasp the right words ....
My one friend is able to look at me and see what I am, she can see how I'm feeling ... and is able to find things out with out even asking .... she's only known me a short while now .... but I find it interesting the way she does that ... *shrugs* ... I want to know what her true opinion of me is

Next ...

I feel like I have a bazillion things to do .... but dont seem to be accomplishing anything ... grrr I hate it ....

Ummmm .... OH

I'd like to thank Emily for putting up with peoples rants .... do note you can rant to me anytime


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I lost my train of though bc the enter button just jammed on me .... grrrrr .... ummm ... anyways .... I'm lonely ..... I truly am ....

Anyways ... sinc I lost my train of thought and keep dozing off ... I'm going to go to bed ... hopefully I'll get a good night sleep