You know what .... I'm fucking pissed off .... I had such an amazing day .... and then at around 3:25 it went downhill .... and then I crashed .... thinking that was the end .... I kept treking on .... only to realize .... nope I'm still travelling downhill ....

So this old man .... I don't even know who he is .... all I know is that he pissed me off ... you know .... made me really angry (keep note of that) .... Anyways, this old man came and sat beside a few of us on the couches in the cafe .... he was reading his paper and then decided to join our conversation .... basically he was trying to appear superior to us .... superior in intellect .... I mean, by all means you can add input into a conversation .... but by no means should you try to degrade students .... 2 people left .... leaving Emme and I with him .... He decided to say that we weren't in tune with the English language ... and that it was apparent that we were only College students .... and that maybe one day we'd be able to go to University .... where .... people must be such brainiacs .... I wish I would have tape recorded it to play it back to you all .... but people can vouch that he was very rude .... and the thing is ... I'm studying journalism .... I'm trying really hard .... and I think that I am doing a pretty damn good job .... but this guy just totally knocked me down .... and humiliated me .... one thing I worry about is the way people percieve me .... I like to think that I'm a smart individual .... I mean by no means am I a brainiac ... but I'm smart .... Anyways ... this guy made me feel like an ass ..... So I went into the bathroom and bitched ... went to the lab .... and ran back to the bathroom where I bawled my eyes out ...
So I took a breathe and tried to brush it off .... I wet to the bus stop and after a while I pulled my hand out of my pocket only to realize I had all this pen in my pocket ... and it turned my fingers blue .... nothing big ... I laughed it off .... then I boarded the bus and there was water on my seat .... I just wiped it off and sat down ... after driving for a bit ... I realized I was sitting underneath a leak .... yep ... that capped it all off .... but wait ....
I hopped into my car and told my aunt and mother about how I got pissed off at this man .... YOU KNOW WHAT THEY DID .... they asked me if I had been taking my medication ..... Do you have any idea what that felt like ..... I just wished my bottle of pills were there so I could take the hole damn thing .... pills cant stop every feeling ... anger is a part of life .... but hearing my family say that hurt .... I felt even more like an idiot .... now I'm an immature person that can't handle anything ... omg .... WHY is everyone else allowed to get angry .... I try to be a decent person ... sure I have my breakdowns and anxiety attacks .... but geez .... is it wrong to be angry .... I know tons of people that flip out a lot more then me .... are they taking their pills .... I guess its true bc I've just written an entire rant .... I want to crawl into a hole right now ... a deep dark hole ....