So many people in this universe and yet I still feel lonely .... nomatter what I do it's always the same ... I'll be sitting in the cafe surrounded by friends and other students, and yet I will feel extremely lonely ... I'll be sitting with my family and possibly even talking about how the day went and yet I'll still feel lonely ... A close friend of mine could throw their arms around me ... and despite that I am glad they are there ... I still have this lonely feeling ... like there is a hole in my heart ... Sometimes I wonder if the hole will ever be filled in ... or if I will spend my life having temporary patches .... patches that hurt when they are torn off ... I guess I should explain my theory about this hole ... I believe it will only be filled by the love for another ... and the temporary patches ... are the people I fall for along the way ... like my bazillion crushes ... Technically I set myself up for pain because I fall for people I know could never love me ... I build up feelings until somebody finally flat out tells me that it won't work out ... and shines that light that lets me see reality ... You'd think by saying all of this I'd stop falling into my own traps ... WELL .. I dont ... I in fact seem to do it more often ... I guess you could say I am a fool ... or perhaps you could say that I'm normal