Why am I so afraid of everything? Seriously. I hate being this way!!!
I know I have to get a job, but I am terrified to go out there and do it. I'm afraid of what people will think of me and not getting a call back. I'm afraid of all the unknowns ..... blah ......
My head is hurting again and I am tired. I don't understand what is going on with my body. I know I'm overweight, and usually you get tired, sweat alot and what not. I've never really suffered from my weight, just my self hatred, but I'd be that way if I was thin. I've always been big and I've liked it, I have a barrier around me and I haven't had any major health problems. I mean I love sports (I do huff and puff .. but a lot of people do), I exercise everyday, my eating has gotten better .... so why am I having trouble now? I mean I'm really worried there is something wrong with my head ... the constant headaches, the feeling that my right eye will pop out, the stabbing pains in my nose and the red eyes eevrytime I wake up .... oh and dont forget my vision and how it is going down the drasin: I have floaties in my eyes, I see flashes of light and sometimes I only see pieces of things. Whatever ... Im going to sleep again and maybe when I wake up my english friend will be on ... or somebody else