I feel like shit and I have no clue why. Yesterday was my 19th birthday ... I went out with a few friends and bought my first case of booze, it was exciting. I came home by 9:30 and then drank a bottle of what I had bought ... my stomach wasn't very happy .... but the giggling made up for that. I feel depressed today, I know that's nothing new ... but ... I do. The other part is it is for one of the same old reasons ... I feel lonely ... and have very low self esteem. I'm worrying about how people percieve me ... including my friends. I guess that's stupid since I hung out with them yesterday ... but yea ... that's how I feel today ... Sorry about the not posting a lot ... I've been doing stuff and what not .... yea ... here come the dots ... notice the increase in dots when I am depressed or frazzled