I went to see King Arthur last night and came out thinking ... thinking about everything ... it's scary how that movie applies today. I mean it applies to many levels ... but war was the one thing that stuck out the most for me ... because they were saying they were fighting to bring peace ... does war = peace? ... I battled my thoughts last night trying to answer that ... and I was amazed to realize that that maybe it does ... *shrugs* ... in some circumstances ... I wish I lived back then ... What was it ... I need to brush up on my history because I've been so focused on what is going on now ... hence this realization last night that history reflects today and to understand today I have to understand yesterday ... *shrugs* ... I may not make sense to you ... but I make sense to myself ... anyways ... Im still in a shitty mood ... I wonder where my life is leading me .. and according to my dreams ... war ... I know last nights dream was influenced by the movie ... but they are always so freaking similar ... it's scary ... but last night ... last night I seemed to be afraid of shattering chandaliers ... which is a line from "Masquerade" ... *shrugs* ... my life and everything is in so much turmoil that I find myself lost ... have I ever known where I was ... I mena if you flip through my posts I always say I feel lost ... nothing is steady ... anyways .. I could ramble for hours today ... but Im sure I already lost you ... well that is if anyone is reading this ... and if there isnt ... then ... *shrugs* ... I guess Im just talking to myself ... "Hello self ... you can do it"