I've never hated my life so much ... people keep making comments and I don't think I can stand it anymore ... for the past few days my grandmother has commented about the pills I take ... and I hate that she does that ... I didn't take them for weeks because I hated the fact I needed them ... and when I finally get back on them and was doing a bit better ... she has to go and get me upset again ... not only that ... but I made a joke today because Dar said I can only eat this one kind of ice cream (expensive) because I get sick on every other kind ... so I said ... I think it is just a mental thing and she said ... I'll say that the next time you reach for your pills ... and she said this while I was eating my birthday cake ... I almost threw up ... so after I ate it I went upstairs ...
Earlier in the day we were supposed to go for a drive .. but dar decided to go for a walk ... but I didnt want to bc it was hot ... and so mom and dar left without me ... and I went upstairs to my computer and my balloons ....
And ... what just put me over the edge .... I was laying on the floor with my birds ... and dar said ... WOW Gill you really need to start exercising alot everyday ... you need it ... geez Gill ...
I cant type anymore because I am crying ... well ... crying so that nobody can hear me ... only the people reading this will know ... I want to say more ... but it's too private