I have a girlfriend .... or .... I'm seeing somebody .... or .... whatever you would like to call it .... I have found the girl of my dreams .... I could spend hours just talking to her about anything .... she can be such a dork and then do a 180 and hold an intellectual conversation with me .... Doesn't that sound familiar .... OH YEA .... because that's TOTALLY like me .... there is a catch .... but I'm working through that and maybe I'll post about it later on .... I hate focussing on it .... I hate realizing the truth .... that things cannot be right now .... I wish I could just own my own island

Well ... yet another day ... and I am still happy ... I can't help but fear what is coming ... we all know things always seem to go bad for me ... I never stay happy for long

Im am in yet another wonderful mood today ... mind you I want to tear out my innerds because I am in extreme pain ... I dont even have my period ... like WTF ... stupid body ... I work tonight ... and I really dont want to .... maybe I could phone in sick .... I mean I really feel like crap

rg4kumr Mic Moo MIc Moo Mic Meeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! I love cheese and socks and Shubatoooza<<<< from theresa ....

rg4kumr Mic Moo MIc Moo Mic Meeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! I love cheese and socks and Shubatoooza<<<< from theresa ....

Hello everyone ... I didnt think tings could get any better ... and KABOOM ... it did ... I wish I could tell you all what is going on inside of me ... but I cant .... words can come together

I am in such a great mood today ... a little tired ... but I've been quite the busy little bee the past couple of days ... So so so so much stuff is going on and I haven't been able to straighten out my thoughts at all ... I'm not extremely concerned though ... because everything feels right ...

I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!

After I splurge $240 today I only have to save up $1646!!!!!!
That's right my friends, once I get my pretty little paws on $1646 I will be purchasing a Canon Rebel Digital SLR ... a 300mm lens ... a flash ... 510MB storage card ... and finally I lovely carrying case for it all ... I AM SO PSYCHED ... Mom says that it is perfectly fine with her if I put most of my OSAP and wages towards it because she knows it's something I will A) USE B) USE FOR SCHOOL and C) ... I really really want it!!!!
Today I am buying a $70 digital voice recorder and some styling new back to school clothes

Right now ... I am so damn happy ... I'm waiting for 7pm to roll around ... I'm not going to say why ... but lately I have been having cravings for something that I shouldn't even put my hands on ... You'd think I'd walk away ... but no ... I move closer ... When will the flame burn me?
School has started and already the stress is pouring over me ... As I sit here typing I am frightened about not finishing 2 articles by the deadline (Tuesday at noon) .... My first article is about AIDS ... my second is about Sept 11 and other historic dates ... I want to interview people and get their opinions on why certain dates/events stick out more than others ... I want to know their feelings ... if they think about these things ... or if they would rather bury them ... In order to do this I am going to have to speak to a few students at the college .... and I think this will be different for me because the questions are so personal .... Im actually debating whether I want to buy a digital recorder

Hello everyone!!!
I know I haven't written anything in a long time ... but things have been crazy for me ... I'm at one of those moments in my life where I am confused out of my mind ... Im constantly fearing ... constantly wondering if I am awake ... or if what I am feeling is real ... The human mind is so complex ... the the ideas and feelings that are running through my body are overwhelming ...
A lot of people have been asking me to post (all of 4 I think) ... Im just not sure what to post ... Im wondering if I am using this space for the wrong reasons ... I wanted to make a space that would make people think ... and whatver ... instead I have turned this into a place where I jot down the idiotic things that run through my mind ... what was I thinking when I thought about creating a space to release intelligent thoughts ... lmao ... Im dumber than a doorknob ... *shrugs* ... but still ... I have never claimed to be perfect ... I am only human ... and if you are reading this ... and you dont like what I have to say ... then just stop reading and walk away ... because this is my space ... if you have anything you want to say ... post in the guestbook or email me ... and please attatch your name ... ESPECIALLY ... if you are going to post something personal ... I mean ... if you aren't going to talk to me and I annoy you so much (aka you must know me in person) ... please say it to my face ... or have the decency to tell me who you are ...
Can you tell somebody has posted something rude? Whatever ... like I said ... I am me ... and imperfect human ... trying to get by in this world ... I have thoughts ... I get angry ... I feel sad ... I do stupid things ... I have quirks ... you know what Im getting at ... so if you dont like it ... dont read ....
*dances around* ... I'll post more soon

Things are going really well with me right now ... I'm content and excited for school. I will post more tonight ... I have to buy school supplies ... anyways ... remember to post in my guestbook

Blue Glass

I built this house
I call it my own
I live inside it
I live all alone
It's walls are translucent
Made of blue tinted glass
I can view the whole world
And watch everything pass
Once in a while I feel cornered inside
I'm afraid of what's out there
So I'd rather just hide
My life is so fragile
It is painted in blue
Just like my glass house
But with one extra screw
That one extra piece
Is the most important of all
My mind holds me together
It won't ever let me fall
A storm is now brewing
It's looking really bad
It took a bolt of lightening
To ruin all that I had
The rain was too hard
The glass was too thin
My house has just been shattered
By a storm that took the win
Please leave me alone
You've waited too long
I thought you could see me struggle
Turns out I was wrong
I'm stuck in these ruins
My life's at a hault
I built this house myself
So I guess it's my fault
I know it won't take long now
I am going to die
With every movement I make
I continue to cry
The glass splits my skin
Blood pours from my flesh
The blood red, the glass blue
The pure colors mesh
Time is ticking quickly
Tears pour from my eyes
They wash over my body
As I look to the skies
The end is now here
I can see the white light
Drawing my last breath
I lose the fight