Anyways ... Im stuck here at school ... I'm really quite calm ... despite that my head is pounding ... I finished all of my work and handed it in ... and I am now ready to face myself ... I am ready to move forward and finish this course .... I feel like such an idiot for getting lost in my thoughts ... *shakes fist* .... why get depressed when I have so little time ... why do i fear everything ... BLAH .. my brain is on overload