That was short lived ... I feel like shit again ... Im back at school ... sitting on my own in the newsroom ... and Im nervous ... scared even ... Im looking around and I see people ... what re they thinking about me ... what if Gary gets angry at me about the flash being stuck on the camera ... what if I fall in the hall ... what if somebody busts through the door and starts shooting ... what if Im not awake ... what if people are angry ... what if im late for class ... and thats just school ... so many thoughts ... I have my music on trying to drown them out ... but its not working ... nothing ever works ... my brain is too powerful ... DAMNIT