Well everyone ...
I had the worst anxiety attack to date. I was rushed to emerge and then strapped to a heart monitor .... yea ... not so much fun .... today I am weak ... I am in pain ... I have lost control over my body ... and cannot get comfortable .... and if my fucking family bugs me anymore ... I will freak ... you know they weren't going to take me to the hospital ... they fucking think its all a joke ... they began driving home until I freaked out and said take me to the fucking hospital ... i know my body ... it was horrible ... I've never felt the way I did yesterday ... and today I feel horrible ... I can hardly stand up ... my head and eyes hurt ... and ... my brain is going crazy ... I didn't sleep last night ... every 1/2hr I would wake up ... it was horrid ... and they are still making fun of me and talking about how Im such a big suck ... and how I should be able to handle things ... because they've had so much more happen to them and they are able to handle it ... FUCK YOU ... like seriously ... it took everything not to slap Dar across the face ... anyways ... Im hoping they leave to go out soon so I can have a shower and maybe lay down