Interesting ... I'm feeling a lot more ... hmmm ... no ... I'm finding that lately I've been ... nope not that either ... Quite frankily I don't know what has been going on inside of myself ... Thoughts are flowing through my mind ... and lately they have made themselves known ... clear as a bell ... but when it comes time to reflect on all that I have "figured out" ... NOTHING ... air ... My mind goes silent ... I finally figure out some of my thoughts and I can't remember any of the conclusions I have come to
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Walmart has corrupted me ... my bubble has been burst ... and it has effected the areas of me I am known for ... My heart ... Am I becoming Scrooge??? ... The holiday shoppers are coming through ... and hardly any of them are cheery ... HEre all these years I thought that people became happier around Christmas ... but as it comes closer ... people become even more rude and ignorant each day ... and it's sticking with me ... Why now ... Why does it have to bug me now? ... I am the Christmas Queen ... I am the girl that loves Christmas ... that tracks Santa on Christmas Eve ... that sings Christmas carols, goes to every possible Christmas event, wears Christmas sweaters and a lovely Santa hat .... Why doesn't it feel the same? .... Hmmm ... Now I went from ranting about Walmart to ranting about something that I only have myself to look at ... I am growing ... While that doesn't mean the magic has to die ... it means ... I have to find new things ... ways of keeping this magic alive .... I also have to come to terms with some things ... *nods* ... wow ... I have to come to term with some things ... and I think ... I think I'm ready ... Just to let you all know ... I am crying right now ... I have figured something out ... right here infront of you ... WOW ...
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Santa has left Australia