Well, I did the unthinkable!!! What's that you ask ... simple ... I failed! ... Oh sure I could make a last struggle to keep myself in the course next semester. I dont want to though. I told my mother that I NEEDED next semester off and that I would return to my program in September. At first my mom said it was okay, so I let myself go. Why should I kill myself when Im coming back next year. Sure I'll show up and learn and take advantage of my resources ... but Im not going to fuss over my work ... and then ... my mother turns against me and hounds me day in and out about staying in school and yata yata yata ... I've already went through all of this is my head ... I've already fought my mind and came to this conclusion ... So anyways, I walk into school this morning and see a note posted on the board that our up to date marks were under the clock ... My stomach knotted for this was the moment of truth ... GUESS WHAT ... I have a 28 and a 40 ... Now please ... for any of you that know me ... does that sound like me? Does it sound like I am trying my hardest ... Do these marks state that I am okay ... NO!!! ... I am an 80's or 90's student ... dipping below those marks if I dislike the class ... I LOVE JOURNALISM ... I WILL RETURN ... PLEASE GIVE ME A BREAK!!!!! ... my life is so hectic and my body and mind are changing so much ... I just need to give myself some time ... I will work ... I will clean ... I will sleep ... eat normally ... maybe get out to the gym ... JUST PLEASE LET ME DO THIS ... PLEASE!!!