Well I went for a drive around Port Dalhousie, mom didn't want to go to NOTL because of the storm warnings ... the drive didn't help me one single bit ... I still feel like crap ... even more so than before ... my spirits keep sinking and there is nobody and when I'm like this I can't help myself ... I like being able to post about the way I feel though, because I like looking back and trying to draw a conclusion to why I do the things I do ... Anyways ... I'm poor again after buying those movies, lending my mother $60 and paying for all that stuff New Years Eve . I was Excited to think I had a $100 until I realized that ... Oh well ... I don't really need it for anything ... Im going to go paint ... or something ... I just dont feel like sitting up in this chair anymore