Why do I let my father bug me so much? Why can't I just move on? Accept that he's an asshole and that I shouldn't put up with him? ... Why do I act like maybe he'll change ... maybe I'll be able to stomach seeing him ... that when I talk to him he won't bring up stupid things from the past ... blame my mother for everything ... That I wont have a listof things that I have to memorize ... you know what I can and cannot say to him ... I wish last time I would have had Robert down on the list ... that was one of the worst days of my life ... Trying to tell him what happened ... that his nephew no longer had legs ... He nearly cried ... He didn't know ... He didn't know that I was in Journalism ... he doesn't know that Im gay ... he doesn't know anything about me anymore ... BAH ... wouldn't that hurt you ... wouldnt you want to know about your child .... keep them safe ... make their life better ... *sigh* .. whatever ... that's my outburst for today