I've started reading another of Sarah Waters' books. It is called "Affinity" and so far I have, yet again, fallen in love .... I have read 93 pages. That is the most I have read in a couple of hours without getting a migraine or having to coax myself to stay awake ... it's amazing so far! I adore the subjects .... what is going on .... this author, seems to have found the right buttons to push on me ....
*giggles* ... I'm slowly waking up and I don't feel as bad as I did a little while ago ... I'm hoping that Jackie gets out of the bathroom so that I can shower .... I think that'll make me relax .... plus my meds should kick in .... I realized a minute ago that I had forgotten to take my meds yesterday ... *giggles* ... I guess the pains that I am feeling are both from my period and my body reminding me about my meds.
It bugs me sometimes ... to feel that ... my body telling me that I need my meds to function properly ... to feel my chest tie itself in a knot ... and feel the anxiety of my forgetfullness swell up. The worry of what could happen click in .... but then I take my pills .... have some toast and wrap a blanket around me .... my body calms down .... and then I just feel the pain in my head .... the thoughts swimming around at full force .... sharks going after some injured fish .... it'll end though ... my pills will make it easier ... I just need to give it all time ... *shakes head* .... It's so strange though .... going through all of these stages .... sometimes as I go through them I find myself missing some of the feelings .... Odd .... who would choose depression? Who would be happy being depressed? ... Truthfully, I like it. Not all the time of course .... but I like depression ...
Well, looks like the bathroom is clear ... so I can go shake this chill and ache ... I'm sure I'll be back ... I'm in a thoughtful sort of mood ....
If anyone is bored or anything ... CALL