*shakes head*
Somedays it's so hard to live in this house and keep myself together.A lot has happened the past couple of days and even more has been said. What makes things worse is that I am sick, so if my thought process wasn't already overloaded, my head is cloudy and congested.
Jen is very ill, but I'm crossing my fingers that she doesnt need to go to the hospital. I don't think my family would be able to handle that right now. There is just too much termoil in this place and could you blame me for wanting to escape from it? I feel horrible for saying that, but as the days go past I feel myself longing to be free, to move out on my own. I know I can't afford it, but it's a nice thought. Plus I dont know if I could leave my family. They need me here, more than ever ... *shrugs* ...
Last night I was on the verge of going to a hotel. My sisters crying, my over-thinking, mother's coughing and the silence that I craved. *shakes head* I'm going to go check on Jen. I may write more later on