Today was a day from hell and my eyes are wider than they have been in awhile. I'm just trying to wrap my brain around everything going on and I can't. Life and all its complexities *shakes head*
Erin's brother-in-law passed away today. He was in his early 30's, he has 2 young children, Jordan (10) and Conor (6) ... I'm a little sketchy for information but he had a heart attack earlier in the week and he came home yesterday. It's so strange because I spoke to him on the phone yesterday morning. Anyways, he had an allergic reaction to something whilst they put him out to unclog something and they told him to stay at the hospital but he came home anyways. Yea ... it's just so unreal. Then I think about Nimisha's father passing away ... and I think of how I take life for granted ... how we all do ... because the other day we were thinking he was okay ... and then he died ... and like ... I just dont understand ... and I just want to hug Erin ... and I want to help their family in any way I can ... tomorrow I am probably going to go help babysit the little ones because April is obviously taking things really hard ... I don't mind ... Erin's mom will be there too ... so we might take them to the park for awhile to give her a break ... I just ... I don't know ...

I had a horrible day at work aswell ... actually my day started off horribly ... I honestly just haven't had a break today ... and right now I am dying to talk to Andy ... but she isnt messaging me ... and I hate calling anymore ... I just need a hug ...