Well ... I've been rather busy lately ... between running through the woods playing capture the flag and working my ass off ... I haven't had much time to type everything out ...

I have realized that people can be assholes. In all honestly, I know I'm a human ... I know I fuck up and despite saying that, I will fuck up a bazillion more times before I die. People piss me off though, even my closest friends can piss me off to know end ... and you all know I piss you off too, so don't start getting all offended because I have decided to post about it ... also don't assume anything is about you ... I'm fed up with people asking me because 99% of the time it isnt about you ... I despise being used ... I despise being seen as some blabbering idiot ... fuck ... I have a brain ... may not work as well as some peoples ... but I think it does its job well ... What is up with people only speaking to me when they want ... they get to make all the moves ... and I let them ... so really I should be asking myself why I let that happen ... but still I dont understand how people can disrespect so much ... and not even notice they are doing it (yes everything I say aplies to myself) ... I get so fed up with humans ... with myself ... we have been given so much yet we waste it ... we blame Pandora for opening up some damn box ... well guess what ... if she didn't do it ... one of us other dumbasses would have gone and done it ...
So yea ... I don't understand why I let people treat me the way I do ... I despise that I always reach out for things because they are close ... and I keep going after it despite that really ... I dont want it ... hell ... I'd be fine without it ... *shakes head* ... yep ... Im strange ... Well now that I think I am finished ranting about goodness knows what ... I will go outside ... to my sanctuary above the streets ... and I'll probably post some happy thing later on ...
I love being the way I am ... and if you dont like it ... then you can stop reading ...