I'm trying to keep myself calm and busy. Tomorrow my family is going to Toronto to visit some relatives, and basically, when we leave this time ... saying good-bye to my uncle ... well ... it'll really mean good-bye. I'm not afraid of seeing him or talking to him. I'm afraid of saying good-bye when I leave. I'm afraid I won't be able to. I'm afraid of crying infront of him. I am afraid of crying in the car and making the others cry. Basically that is occupying my mind.
Im supposed to go out tonight ... and I really need it. I just want to relax