Well I had an amazing night. I went to My COttage with a few friends. I've never really been out to a club. I'm usually too afraid. I finally got up enough courage. I did have a few pannicky moments. I looked at the faces around me though, and I knew I was safe. Nimisha, Lisa, Lindsay, Greg, Maryann and Mac all came out. Lisa ended up driving me home and I'm terrified what I said. My alcohol and meds kinda mixed so I was really fucked in the head, plus we had been standing under the speakers so I was deaf. Meh, I hugged her before I got out of the car, but she hugged me back so I think it was fine. ooo ... in other crush news ... I believe April is back from her 2 week vacay, so my nightly harassments will be starting up again HAHAHAHAHA Oh, how I have missed her

*sings* CAUSE I GOT FRIENDS IN LOOOOW PLACES

Today was an extremely stressful day though. A lot of yelling and cursing ... worst of all ... pain. It started late because we all slept in, then whilst getting ready Dar called and said Sherry was talking to her and she said all this shit. SO mom started getting EVEN PISSIER, she was already stressing out about goodness knows what. She told me she wished I'd move out ... lately Ive been thinking about it. I've been thinking I may get a full-time job, save ... not go back to school for another year or two ... and set up my own place ...I would be happy with a bedroom, kitchen and bathroom ... honestly ... if there is a living room ... all the better because it'll serve as a place for guests and my office area ... where I will write and do photo stuff when I'm not at work ... I think I could pull it off ... I just dont how much longer I can live here ... honestly I could scream