Here it comes another rant about life, if you dont want to hear it, then stop reading. I really dont feel like answering to anyones fucking replies about how I am too hard on everyone including my damn self. You know what, we are all too hard on everything.
The basics are, we are all just a bunch of jerks living together. Nomatter how much we try to disguise it, we all have faults.
Currently I am pissed off at myself. I am upset about the life a lead. Currently my mum and I hardly speak, most of that is attributed to the asshole that has taken over my house. I want him out. I can't stand him anymore. He is a rude and arrogant person, more so than most.
Now, that I do not have my mother to take me on drives nor do I EVER have an empty house, I spend numerous hours with Dar. Being with Dar is tiring. She is depressed and crazy. She cant move from the past ... she doesnt realize not everyone is after her. That seems to be a trend in my family. Always afraid of somebody ruining out happiness. ALSO, Dar is obsessed with Wayne and the lottery. Im ready to fucking pop my ear drums.
Yesterday we drove past my autn nancy's and that was the first time I had seen her since she was diagnosed with MS. She has been working with a speech therapist, so she is doing better with that. Still though, looking at her I felt sad ...
Then my sister. My sister is in a lot of pain and I cant stand seeing that. Every so often you turn her the wrong way and she'll just whail. I hug her and sometimes she settles, but you can see in her eyes that she is in pain.