I feel like crap tonight
I had a pretty good day, but work was crazy. This morning I went to the Remembrance Day service in NOTL and then shopping for a bit ... after all of that I came home showered, spent 30 minutes choosing what to wear and went to work. Lidia and I were going to go out tonight, but she was feeling really tired.
You know I can't describe to you guys how things are different this time around. I was all ready to go out with her tonight. I was hardly afraid. I was ready to just have a good time with her and her friends. You all know how I would normally be gagging and freaking out at the IDEA of going out with people I hardly/dont know. Also when we go for coffee, I don't get nervous like I normally would ... and she seems to understand the way that I move around. She knows to walk ahead of me and clear the seat before I sit down in the car .. hell she even seems to know how I like to sit in Timmy's. Mind you being the big baboon I am I stepped on her heal, which Im sure A) really hurt and B) made me look like an ass. Anyways, I've never felt so comfortable with and around a person. She makes me feel so safe and loved ... She's straight, don't get me wrong. Lidia is straight, but knows that I like her. She doesn't even back away from me. So many other people would shy away, but she came closer. *sigh* ... So Im sad I don't get to spend time with her tonight ... Sunday after work we may watch a movie. I'd like that.