Shoot me right now!!!
grandma isnt home, there are no spare keys, doug, deb AND ROBERT are all out of the building ... I hurt so much and just want a bathroom. There are 6 people here for training ... I cant do anything ... and the pain is worsening

Today I am in pain .. lots and lots of pain .. this is my first period since the operation ... and my body is ... IN PAIN ... shoot me now ... everything hurts ... and I just want to sit in the tub but they are training people on equipment ... and my grandma flew the coop ... urgh ... IT HURTS SOOOO MUCH

  This is amusing I wonder what'll happen

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I am counting down the days until I can go back to work. I despise being stuck at home, and for a while there I was also stuck in bed *shutters* Give me as many hours as you can and I'm good to go ... ooo and add on some assignments and social activities. Oh how I miss multi-tasking! The strange sense of urgency and the joys of accomplishing everything. Anyone say speedway life????
Mom has been talking about moving again, thank goodness!!! I was afraid she had given up on that idea. If we do move I will have to begin paying for everything. Not just getting by and paying for a few things. Go figure I'll need an influx in hours come spring and summer. I must admit these months are normally fun. Sure, sometimes the Jamaican's flirting and Mexican's yelling gets to be a bit annoying, but all in all it amuses me.
Hmmm ... maybe this year we will have another power outage and spend a day in the sun, barbequeing ... LMAO. Seriously fun times at Wall-World!!! Steph and I racing with carts of plants ... and the ever so amusing watering of the plants that turned into a slight waterfight. I'm totally applying to do Garden Center this year! Sure there is some lifting, a lot of sun (possible sun stroke), busy beyond belief, potential shoplifting and numerous other things ... but all in all, the shifts i had out-there were kickass!!!!
Well, I'm sure you can all tell by now that my seasonal depression is lifting ... so look forward to some more upbeat posts (despite that last one)
Oooo .. but let me get in one last complaint. I am in so much damn pain. I don't understand what else I can do to myself. My back is strained, my right hip is out and I'm still bruised on the inside ... so for all of you out there complaining, just remember ... YOU ARE NOT ALONE ... HA HA HA HA

He pisses me off so damn much .. ARGH!!!!!

I went to the hospital. Apparently I strained the shit out of my back yesterday ... so Im back to being bed ridden .. lmao .. I swear this is so damn frusterating. I can't stand being stuck in bed, wasting my days ... it's such a waste of time ... I cant even go for a walk outside now ... I hate not being productive ... Im a burden to everyone because I can hardly get up to go to the bathroom ... let alone out to the kitchen to get a drink ...
Last night when I was at the hospital, I suddenly had to go to the bathroom, but my back had locked up on me again. Mom had left.. (I was at the Dieu's prompt care) ... So I rolled out of bed and onto a rolly chair my mom had been sitting on. I pushed myself to the bathroom but the big door to the room was blocking it and I knew I couldnt stand up, push it open and squeeze past. There was a lady cleaning up the other beds (I was the only one left in the room) and I asked her if she could close the door. She asked what was wrong and I told her I could get up to get to the bathroom and I started to get upset and cry ( here I am stuck in a chair because my back had locked) ... I felt helpless yet determined, hence the rolly chair .. she came over and then got another lady to help stand me up so there wasnt so much pressure on my back. When she came back in the room and I apologized through my tears .. she said not to worry and stroked my hair back. She couldn't believe I was able to get so far on my own ... the other lady came and as they helped me she asked when they last gave me something for the pain ... I said they hadnt and she was like ... you poor thing no wonder ... After that I walked back to my bed, they came and shot me with Morphine and guess what ... it hardly did squat ... but whatever after having Xrays of my back he said I must have strained my back and since I just had surgery my body is on overload
So yea .. I'm kind of upset/angry/depressed today ...

Fuck this shit. How many chances to you give a person? How much is too much? Sometimes I just want to rip this person to shreds. I can't stand them. Then, I feel bad if I turn my back because so many others have doen that. I try to understand ... but fuck ... Decency!!! Just treat me with some damn respect. Has anyone else encountered this???? lol ... hopefully not with me

This shall be a short post mainly because Im in pain and drugged

So I had my surgery (I'll post the highly entertaining story another day) and now I am at home recovering. I must admit it isn't that bad. Sure I'm in pain but I can bare it. Last night I had a hard time and Im not feeling so great this morning .. but otherwise Ive been good. Today th eadded pain is in my back, I probably hurt it trying to becareful of my stomach ... lol ... anyways Im going to lay down ... but I just wanted to say that everything is ok