Another awakening
Another day
Another blue sky
Another chance at life

I watch as the world crumbles around me and my heart begins to sink with it. I turn on the news ... and then flip .... I see Jerry Springer .... then a music video about suicide .... I flip again to watch people disect the way a women looks 10 years older than what she is ... war on terror ... golf ... celebrities speaking ... and finally I settle on watching a big purple dinosaur singing about how we are all special in our own ways ...
I think the tv is telling me to go outside because looking out from the inside things are pretty fucked up, if kids have to look to a dinosaur for the basic values of life.

I suppose it is about time I start writing again so that some of you can keep up to date with what is going on in my life. Mind you it isn't very exciting.
Still single, still at wal-mart, still sleeping on a couch and above all of that still fighting the demons in my mind.
Seeing each day through a different colored glass. Some days it is that shade of blue, a blue that is as dark as the depths of an oceans ... then there are those days where all I can see is red. Everything is in flames and I can merely laugh at those that get in the way. The best days occur when the paint can lids are tossed to the side and everything can just flow ... splatter my eyes and I can see the rainbows