For so many years I worried about the people around me ... I tried to give everyone everything I could ... and you know what ... I didn't want anything in return ... and I don't want anything in return ... EXCEPT ... to be able to blog freely ... this is a space for me to write ... so of course half the things in here are going to be about me ... Im allowed to think about myself aren't I? ... Im allowed to be negative? I'm allowed to be upset? And yet at the same point in my day to day living I can be a generally nice person, right? ... APPARENTLY not ... Apparently I am some fucking bitch that is so fucked in the head I might aswell die ... or wait ... am I supposed to shut up and "HANDLE IT"? ... You know I bitch on here a lot ... because this is my area to type what I want ... and half the time Im bitching about shit ... GUESS WHAT ... Im not always happy ... im probably not even making sense ... but thats bc Im on a new drug ... and its turning me into a fucking space cadet ...why are people so closed minded ... they see one thing and focus on it ... despite thats not even the fucking truth ... OMG im so pissed off right now it isnt even funny ... I hate fucking human beings ... they think they know everything about you ... GUESS WHAT WORLD ... I HAVE SECRETS ... you dont know all my fucking problems ... so dont act like you do ... dont act like you know why I am the way I am ... or whatever ... if you want to diagnosis me ... show me your proof of being a doctor? Whats that? You cant ... then shuit the fuck up ...